THIS WEEK

I haven't spoken about the trip because I honestly can't be bothered to remember it. This week has been MUCH better. As in I basically have realised that he just wasn't that into me and to be honest can't be bothered to dwell on him or the whole situation. In fact I think he is a major piss taker. I think about how RUDE he was in the days before we broke up and I can't but laugh. I'd pay good money to go back to those days so I can really let him know a thing or two about a thing or two. As in WTF? I can't believe I let ANYONE speak to me like that, oh well it was love(even though that's ironic cause love shouldn't be hurtful). He tried to use sub-par excuses to justify the fact that he just stopped being into me,but I'm not as hurt as I am irritated. He KNEW what he was getting into, he ignored it for whatever reasons and now I'm left to pick up the pieces after he came up with some nonsense about not being able to deal with all that comes with being with "Einner Sad".

Oh well A and A are in town and I'm having a blast, thank you God. This is just what the doctor ordered and I plan to have as much fun as I can before they go back. "I" has REALLY been calling, he KNOWS nothing can come out of it so we basically are just cool homies(I have a feeling he thinks I'll change my mind). I am extremely grateful to God for all the people in my life, as in they reminded me of who exactly I am. I'm not saying I'm 100% o...far from it! In fact, today while A and I were listening to music I felt a brief pang but quickly caught myself. It is going to take time to heal properly and completely.

It's two minutes into Val's day...My mum sent the prettiest white and bling chain ever(and that is something cause she gives me buff jewelry all the time), The two A's and I are going to dinner and A insisted on getting me a gift to compensate for all the stuff I had to give away(IMAGINE I had to give away all the vals stuff I got for S, It felt GOOD though. There was not enough money in the world that would have made me still send it, abeg I'll chest my losses) Basically all is not lost today.

I'll continue with the story of the trip just because I should learn to see things through and maybe it'll give me closure, but I'll do it when I'm in the zone. Right now, I'm just so excited about the good things to come. The sharp turn around can only be as a result of God's mercies so a big THANK YOU to all my family, friends and anyone else who prayed for me. Have a happy Valentine's day.